SAHM and everything I used to have.

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Sometimes i feel a bit sad thinking about...

All the outings that takes a lot of effort because i have to bring around a toddler and a baby.

All the good food that i cant eat without having to feed two mouths (three, plus mine) and a possible tantrum.

My fringe which i wanted to cut a long time ago but now outgrown..and a hair colour wish which is still pending..

The dates we used to go out together, peacefully.i think i even forgotten how to go on dates without the kids.

Dance rehearsals and aerial class..my pole.but of course. this would be an invalid wish at this age and with 2 kids.

Shopping for the kids, planning their birthdays, chipping in on vacation..and all the things i used to do when i was still earning twice what i earn now.

But everyday i witness with my own eyes how these two grow up and they change almost everyday.they amaze and surprise me ever so often that i might not get a chance to see if i go to work. 

Riz is becoming so attached to me and im loving every single second of it (except when he cries) and Tia..well she's still the daddy's girl she is and i cant change that (its ok now i have my mommy's boy blegh) but she is growing up to be very pretty inside out in my eyes n i would love to give the world to her.

Sometimes i miss work.not the unnecessary stress.but the lunches, the new restaurants we try every friday, short naps on the desk, the chats with colleagues, the pretty clothes.sometimes i feel stripped of everything. everyone needs a break. now i know what they mean by..being SAHM is not the world. u dont get paid at all, no leaves at all, no friends at all.

But hey, i can always go to work when i want to, cuz i will always have my degree in hand (if my license tak ditarik or something).and for now, im enjoying my kids too much. i am thankful for my husband who lets me have this chance, and also tries to bring us out to new restaurants , although together with the kids..to try on cuz i really need that after all the long days of housework.

However, as discussed with hubby a few days bfore..i do want a whole day away from housework and kids for a good salon session, facial or spa.just for a break.next week i hope.ok til then:)

Lots of love.

Riz Johann's 8 Months Shirt Shoot and Vlog.

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Life's greatest treasures.
Such an honour to be able to watch these two gifts grow, and watch their milestones.
Each are special in their own ways and just different.  2 different individuals. 
Allah's creations are crazy amazing aren't they?:)

Well of course there are good and bad days of child care. one moment rasa sayang gila and the next moment especially during the nights when the baby doesnt wanna sleep..u'll be like grrrrr. but hey overall i am enjoying what i do. it's super duper tiring, at times u feel unappreciated but i love it. i guess its just mothers instinct. 

Anyways.....here's Riz's 8 month shirt shoot and omaigod why oh why did I chose to put him on the sofa? for the rest of the year takuttt dia jatuh sofa tu cuz he moves non stop this boy.tsk tsk:D

I've aways thought Tia is hyper and i can handle anything else after her. but noo. Riz is like..2-3x more hyper and adventurous than she is. at 8 months he roams Gymboree like a boss while waiting for big sister to finish class. and by roam i mean he crawls super duper fast  under the equipments and climbs the slides from bottom to top okay....crazy boy. but i love you nonetheless!

He wakes up 3am for milk then at 5.30am and playplayplay and sleeps back at 8am. ok ini i dont like. i dont nap during the day and i wantt my good night sleep:( He can finish eating a whole chinese bowl full of porridge and still asks for milk after. crazy boy but i love you hehehe

ok video log time. We missed the shirt shoot for the 7th month (sedihhh) but fewh i did make a videolog. so here's 7 months and 8 months RJ:)

til next post! hugss

An update: Runaway maid and being a SAHM, Riz 6 months shirt shoot.

Monday, August 4, 2014

Oh my.

What a long hiatus it has been..
I have been very very busy. adjusting as a mother of two takes forever for me cuz i am nowhere near good at this.

Watching both of them grow everyday has been an incredible blessing...everyday I keep reminding myself that they will never be the same as days pass by.

Tia will not roleplay with her magic clip princesses forever. and wont come to and say "I love you very much mommy" when she's older.

And Riz...he will not crawl forever. and i am desperately trying to etch the memory of him crawling and exploring every possible nook and cranny he can get in, in my mind. since I didnt get to do the same with Tia last time.

My maid ran away. this is the 2nd maid who ran away. Indonesian maids are hopeless. u are nice to them and they are grateful to you and all and then the next day they creep out of the gate. The first one crept out at night and came back at down. this one ran away from my moms house and i found love notes in the exercise book we gave her. geez.

So I'm really tired of being fooled and waste my money on these uneducated people and decided to cope with not having one at all. for good. I have to say we had beter privacy as a family since then...n my children arent attached to a stranger anymore. I do have crazy mad days when i feel so fed-up-please-i-need-a-break but i hope it's just part of getting used to doing everything by myself. 

So what does it feels like to be a SAHM? Sometimes i feel like ive been washing and washing everything forever and the clothes are never ironed. I wash milk bottles one after another the entire day. I vacuumed the house with riz in my Boba carrier on my back. sampai terlentok2 tidur dia. To get things done I rented a playard from www.rentatoys.com so my living room area serves as a big playpen to Riz. and whats sad at the moment is...i had to send tia to my parents during the day..til daddy comes home:( I need to get things sorted and bring her home where she belongs. The days are long especially when my husband does locums...that can never change because i dont work fulltime anymore..and its a truth that i have to get used to. alah kalau i still kerja pun dia sibuk berlocum gak. I also juggle in some sewing...making tutu skirts for the lil girls out there to twirl in. eceh. so my entire day is filled with so many things to do. busy bee sungguh. more than when i was working last time. heheh.

Thanks to the runaway maid, i am busy like this and forgotten Riz's monthly shirt shoot:( I missed the 7th month. yaaargh stress. but here's the 6 months shirt shoot and a video of him practicing the crawl.

Crawling RJ at 6 months old from Sabrina Salleh on Vimeo.

I am amazed at how Riz starts crawling really early...but then again he's a boy and apparently they achieve physical milestones faster. hehe. now at 8 months omg he's everywhere. climbing and cruising everywhere. good thing is, less falls too. cuz he practice day and night. lol

Head the size of a soft toy.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Riz Johann, 
7 months old and your head is as big as the pororo medium sized soft toy.

I remember ur sister wearing that hat around when she's your age and now she cant fit her head in it anymore.

A reminder to mommy that children grow up so fast that no matter how they annoy me with breaking sleep, stubbornness and handfulness, not to mention broke without allowances...this is worth it.

Watching them grow is worth it.

From the moment when their head is smaller, as big as til its far bigger than a pororo soft toy.....

Mommy Made: Toddler Lounge/Pajama Pants

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Got this really cute knit material on clearence from www.fabricfairy.com and turned it into the most comfy wide legged lounge pants for tia.

I used this tutorial fro Cotton Creations:) The easiest tutorial ever i swear.hehe. and pajama pants were my first sewing project too haritu.

Looks so stretchable and comfyy right?

Till then, hugs!

Riz Johann 5 Months Old Update

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

My baby boy is 5 months old now:)
Besides the list above..he likes to jump and jump and jump when put into standing position, he had his first swimming session (and had fun) and also figuring out how to crawl forward..not by commando but real crawl. sleep however....pukul 5am je terus bangun tak nak tido dah. aishhhh.

5 Months Old Riz Johann from Sabrina Salleh on Vimeo.

Drool Bibs Upcycled from Old Clothes

Sunday, May 11, 2014


I've been up to some sewing these past few weeks.
I have recently invested in a sewing machine. oops. not a sewing machine. but TWO. heheh.
Long story. I was supposed to be in London yadayadayada and was frustrated and found myself in Cottage Patch Ampang Point purchasing 2 Brother sewing machine. An overlock and an NV950. 

I always believe each household needs a sewing machine. and I'm gonna make this purchase as worth it as possible. 

My very first project is pretty simple : Sewing bibs for Riz.
Riz is now a very drooly baby because his saliva factory is under construction. Could have bought sets of 4 or 5 bibs from the shops but nothing means more than mommy made ones:)

And also, nothing means more than bibs upcycled from mommy's old favourite officewear. hehe
Mommy has put on a few more kgs so I cant wear some shirts and tops anymore (sob!) so i decided to put them to good use.

Making a Bandana bib is easy. draw a triangular pattern as below, cut cut and sew sew. 
I used an old towel for the backing and the absorption is awesomee. keeps his chest from getting wet. trust me, when he wets a bib, it really gets super wet!

I could get 2 bibs from this shirt;)

The final product

The handsome model
Then as days got by, I got a wee bit more better at feeding materials through the machine and upcycled ALL his outgrowned baby rompers. they are really nice Carters printed rompers and Mothercare ones so sayaaang nak buang ok! so i decided to upcycle them all up into bibs so riz could wear the prints a bit longer:D I cut the front and back pieces and also inserted his kain lampin in between those pieces for extra absorption. I also embroidered his name on it so it looks wonderfully personalized.
This bib was upcycled from both carter and mothercare clothes.

So do you have a sewing machine? go ahead and upcycle those all favourite baby clothes;) anybody need my help to do it and not too fussy....let me know. will gladly upcycle those clothes for you for a teeny weeny housewife's allowance fee. hehe

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