I wasn't feeling emotionally alright before i slipped into sleep last night...in fact i found myself tearing out of nowhere when the room mate's gone to bed. to those who didn't know, i'm all the way here in malacca, sent by the government to attach with another hospital to learn some respiratory stuff. long story that. its been 5 nights since i've last seen hubby and 10 days since i've seen my family. oh and shea the cat. yes you're right - HOMESICK.
Last thought before bed was....hubby didnt message me goodnight. hubby promised to call back but he didnt. hubby didnt say he loves me anymore by text before bed like last time. maybe he doesn't miss me or appreciate me anymore like he used to last time.
Yes, all the petty stuff...ones that i realize only when i wake up in the morning with slightly puffy eyes. he does love me. he says it by mouth nowadays, he doesnt text it. he still hugs me around my shoulders/neck when we go out. yes he still loves me. and again, i was caught in a whirlwind of mixed up confused hormones, rethinking, reanalyzing things in a different way.
I was watching a newborn baby who is placed on a bouncer, nice wrapped. i saw my family: little sister, mom, dad, brother. all surrounding the baby smiling and admiring her. i watched as i feel relieved, happy that the delivery process is over and there she was, the beautiful baby in front of my eyes.
Then the scene switched. there was a hut at the edge of a cliff facing the sea. those kind of huts which look like a small pavillion. roof made out of dried leaves withe bamboo floor. and i was lying on my tummy with hubby sitting on my side. he was talking to one of my dance teachers (very out of nowhere). i was just admiring the view. i remember blue sea, wide wide blue sky. possibly the most beautiful view i've ever seen. i even remembered the gentle breeze blowing at my hair. when suddenly there are big waves. water seeped through the bamboo floors sweeping at my feet. i knew we have to run to safety. hubby and i ran further to higher grounds, scrambled up a hill, holding hands. we left the dance teacher. we saw a big tsunami coming after us and swallowed the teacher. i thought 'omigoodness he's gone!'..both of us are safe. but when the tsunami pulled back, there he was, my dance teacher. smiling and nicely standing. in one piece. then the alarm rang. i woke up.
It was a vivid dream. one that i can still remember at 11pm right now. i remembered it as not a scary dream...instead with all the amazing view and the baby and all...i thought it was beautiful. minus the tsunami n the brief panic i guess. it kind of has every element that means a lot to me so i randomly googled for interpretation. it doesnt mean that i believe in dreams interpretation..this site i found actually looks at ur dream psychologically. not what is going to happen if u dream this and that...but what is happening in your life that influenced that dream of yours. it's a dream dictionary at dreammoods.com:) these are what they say about the elements of my dream. i found it fascinating. and some parts are true:
Newborn baby: You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in a waking situation.
Tsunami: To see a tsunami in your dream, means that you are being overwhelmed by some repressed feeling or unconscious material that is rising up to the surface. You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in a waking situation
Hut: To see or live in a hut in your dream, represents the basic necessities and comforts. You need to simplify your life and get back to the bare basics. Accept what you already have and know that that is enough.
Cliff: To dream that you or someone falls off a cliff, suggests that you are going through a difficult time and are afraid of what is ahead for you. You fear that you may not be up for the challenge or that you cannot meet the expectations of others.
Family: To see your own family in your dream, represents security, warmth and love. It could also symbolize bitterness, jealousy, or rivalry, depending on your relationship with your family. Alternatively, it could mean that you are overly dependent on your family, especially if the family members are in your recurring dreams .Consider also the significance of a particular family member or the relationship you have with them.
Acquaintance: To see an acquaintance in your dream, represents aspects of yourself that you are still trying to get to know.
Till next post,