My final weight at the end of pregnancy was 58kg.
My weight at 4 months postpartum is 46.7kg. weighed last sunday.
|pre pregnancy weight while i was actively freelance dancing.|
Since i gained a massive 15kg and dropped 11kg in 4 months...i guess yes, i have to give some credits on the one whole month of breastfeeding and the lack of parking space at the hospital, which causes me super long power walks twice a day, 5 days a week- once in the am and once after work ends.
|pre pregnancy- around that time we discovered our pregnancy.|
When i tell people i'm fat.......i always get this: 'what are you talking about sab?u're skinny already'.'if you're fat, then what am i?' and yes, it does made me feel a little bit psychotic for wanting to lose more but....here's the actual deal- i have been pretty comfortable weighing 43kg for so many years. i think since 2nd year of uni. and i worked real hard for that pre pregnancy body that i am actually kind of distraught that i am now heavier and um..a little bit more curvier. and this cesarian scar will haunt me till i die. my lower abs really looked like it has been slit n sewn close. it took away 70% of my self esteem. i dont even know if it has been done correctly. and i feel sad every single day when i look at it in the mirror.
I am aware that i was very skinny before the pregnancy. muka pun nampak cekung dlm gambar. i shud probably aim for 45kg to be ideal. ntah la.
|pregnant at 37 weeks.|
So what is Powerplate training?
Ok firstly, so how paranoid am i with this cesarean recovery thing? i followed Sazzy Falak on twitter.
Ok, freaking celebrity stalker mode.
But why not? she had twins via cesarean section and skinny like nothing happened.
I bet her scar looks better. at least hers wasnt done by some random MO doctor. sigh.
|Post pregnancy at 4 months.|
I hope this is worth it. its like i've enrolled myself into bootcamp. i want to prepare my body again for pole exercise because i enjoyed it so much. i hope to minimize the permanent bulge above my scar....and get my self esteem back. i have paid a lot (and u wudnt wanna know how much) ..hopefully i'll get a good outcome. 11 times of 45minutes torture sessions to go. sigh.