Soo sick of work.
Not even doing things i learnt for 4entire years of pharmacy school.
I cant see the relevance of the tasks i was given...rasa mcm kuli batak.
I am here because work is just 8hrs a day, 5 days a week.no oncalls. and i chose to be here because family time to me, to a lady is more important than profession. leave that passion to them boys. My core responsibility is to ensure makan minum pakai anak2 n suami terurus sahaja.
Sekarang core responsibility saya tunggang langgang.
Last weekend we just discovered that tia identifies colours. eh, sejak bila pulak ni? see, i missed a frickin milestone.
Everyday i wish some kind of side income wud fall on my lap, some sort of part time work that which only requires 1-2days a week and could pay for my commitments. well...there is some sort of tiny light at the end of this long tunnel.very faint, very tiny dot of light. i was offered something which i wish for.but i havent received the actual call from the company, so i feel like that tiny source of light is still unreachable..n perhaps dimming away. actually there are 2 dots of light, cuz i have got 2 offers.
I meant to take 6months maternity leave..and i aim at the end of it all..never to return to work. i pray everyday that that would come true. Perhaps Allah will have some mercy, and could see what my heart is sincerely devoting itself to.
Heres a hug to all working mommies who:
- Scrolls through her phone photo album every hour because she misses her child/children.
- Is at work for the money to provide a good life to her kids, n not for the love of their job.
- Has to struggle and pump milk for their babies in front of the office computer (n some while typing) instead of direct feeding,cuddling and bonding with them.
- Comes home from work too exhausted to care if laundry has been settled, if dinner has been cooked.
I wanna keep this list short, because i could go on forever, and i know uve been reading a lot of this here and on the way to meluat-dom..so hey, big hug to all ok.