Since a month ago i have this nagging backpain. its terrible when i wake up every morning, when i sit for more than half an hour, when i lift riz out from the playpen.it hurts when i bend down. on a scale of 1 to 10 on a pain scale it would be a 7 everytime i bend down or strain that part.its bad that its very mood detrimenting and i get irritated very fast with the kids..
sometimes i cant find time to bathe.or finish my laundry. or i cant manage the two of them when one cries. and i always get that annoying question.
How do u keep sane with a 3yo who goes around and around singing at the top of her lungs around u while ure trying to converse with someone?and a 1yo who would climb anything raised in fromt of his eyes and chews every darn thing be it food or non food?pulls on the cats tail at every chance he gets, and eat cat food? and a sister who would follow everything lil brother does just to get the same attention? so how do u cope? how do u stay sane?
Baru anak dua dah tak boleh handle.kalau lebih?
which is why i have only two, and if u see another one coming, that would definitely be an awful accident.
But really, be kind. that question takes a lot out of my self esteem..i'm hopeless. i cannot take care of only two kids.
But u know what, i did it all on my own.my mom has never survived without a maid taking care of us two although she also stays at home.but i have no help.nobody understands what riz wants or needs EXCEPT me. yes i may yell at Tia. but i don't beat her like they did last time. and i still get "macam mana jaga anak baru dua dah marah2 macam ni?".ya rabbi.my husband works 3 nights in a row. anak bangun pagi tanya "daddy is not back from work yet?" in the morning. not night. they havent seen their dad in 3 days.i am handling everything on my own..and stayed up at night making tutus so that i could send tia to school. i have never slept before 1am.so i dont know what is enough for my parents......